another veroish day! :D

2012-01-19T01:34:00.000+08:00

Am currently a graduated student. First of all.. Happy new year! Actually is happy belated new year! I was kind of busy to update my blog before. and yeaa.. i don't know what to update either. Honestly, I mostly only update my blog when I'm sad. You know, the adrenaline suddenly went active and so many ideas to blog.

I ain't sad now. Don't know what is that complicated feeling. There's only a week away. Then I'm going to begin my uni life. Yeshh. That life I keep looking forward before. I wished I can leave as soon as possible and start a new life. But hell no! As the day is getting nearer and nearer, the fear inside is also getting more and more obvious. I always thought the time is still long yet, but no, it's not. The time is long only when I don't know when will I see you again. It would be the most suffering thing I would be having.

Know what? I will miss you very much. I couldn't even imagine the life without you. I don't know how long I can stand this. You've already know it aren't you? You've already noticed the little details changed. How i wish i could just tell you out loud about what i feel and what i think about you! Thanks for bringing me so many sweet memories that i would never forget!
Am worrying now. I worry the same thing is going to happen again and i couldn't be there. I afraid i would just be one of the girls while i thought i am special to you. How i wish you could tell me how do you feel and think about me too. Don't say i am not mature enough to understand. It's not the problem, i only need an explain.
I don't want to missed every single second of my time left to cherish you don't you understand? Don't keep me guessing don't keep me worrying don't keep my heart hanging there for you. It's too late to regret already. I;ve already fallen into you so freaking damn deep duhh!

2011-12-17T00:02:00.001+08:00

Thanks God! I am reminded to keep my heart strengthen. Go away seduction! Sorry heart I almost hurt you again.

It was a long long day. I went to mom's shop to lend her a hand since her worker is not going to work temporally for some personal reasons. Realising the more you expect something, the more the probability it wouldn't come. It's been a day already, I keep checking on my phone, wondering if it's having problem or what.. I'd accidently crossed over the secure line already, I expect too much.

No messages no phone call no nothing. I admit that there's still a little disappointment in my heart but I'll ignore that feeling anyway. Keep dreaming like this is not healthy for me, I don't want to get unnecessary sickness because of these unnecessary things lol.

I am sorry that I have to keep connected to keep my insecure away, but this is tiring. And I don't deserved to be like this. Sorry for making trouble to you all the time. I feel guilty and i meant it, I don't just say it to expect for your sympathize. I just find nothing better to do than apologize already. I hate myself being like this wtf.

I wanted to write something happy every time, but every time i ended up my post with something like this. I don't know.. I hate that too.

2011-12-14T17:35:00.002+08:00

I don't know.. Are you hinting me something? Or is this just another temptation to test my determination?
I am scared. I afraid that everything will just suddenly disappear like before. I am too glad already to have those memories with you that I never expect. I had too much already.. I would rather to have nothing just from the beginning than loosing something. Loosing cause more pain and I don't want it.
I am really happy and appreciate to God to see your smile. It gives me a lot of power to remain my day. Thanks! :)
I don't know when would this happiness ends but I will be prepared, I am just counting it down to be ended, I know this wouldn't last forever. I want you to know that I will always by your side, until the day you don't need me. This is all I can do for you. Seeing you being great and happy, cherishing the time being with you. This can made my day already.

Thanks God! Thanks for staying me strong to walk until now. I might be tired sometimes, but thanks for giving me strength so that I din't give up. Although I wanted to..

2011-12-13T01:59:00.000+08:00

For your information, I've already done my SPM exam and currently a graduated student. Tadaa!
Life is surprising especially when you turns your head over sometimes and you ll see how much things have you missed. Is everything deserved for the now-you? Or did you regret about anything? Well you have no choice already. Looking back is just an action for us to learn and to appreciate, not to regret.

It's coming soon. We all gonna separate very very soon. Quick, do something you want to do before it's too late to regret. We all don't know when will be the next chance, maybe this is the last one. Hold it tight and go!

Pray hard that everything would be okay. You would be strong to face no matter any problems and challenges, and strong enough to stand up even if you just had a big fall, strong enough to smile to your life challengers, strong enough to keep going.
Do not give up, okay?

Before it's too late to regret, I hope i can do what I've said. Be brave! I don't want any regret happens on me.

Fullstop to sleep! Good night! ;)

2011-11-30T01:06:00.001+08:00

I feel empty and i hate it. I hate when i think i have almost forget you, and a sudden sweet action from you can just easily ruin up everything again.

It's hard to stand up from a big fall. My knees aren't that strong enough. So don't challenge me, please. I just hate to keep starting over a game again and again. I don't have that much of energy and time.

I envy the girl in the movie. She has such a dramatic life and a dramatic ending. But I understand the reality. The ending wouldn't ever be that perfect so easily, so simply. Like now. I only have plenty of limited time. After this, i think we would never have this kind of chance to meet each other again. One day i will forget you. But i will miss you. No, I miss you already. :(

One day, maybe one day i will forget you. I hope that day will come very soon. Instead of making things worst, being like this would just make things worst.

Time fliess. Things past so fast until i couldn't remember everything is real or just a dream.

I hate all the shit now. Fml.

Me no like this :(

**

2011-11-07T01:27:00.001+08:00

Was thinking something to update for my lil bloggie X)
hmm....

The wind was freaking heavy today. I hope the same thing wouldn't happen tomorrow.
Tell you what! I am going to perform with the band during this coming tuesday! I know. My SPM is just a week away. That scary thing that even messed up my PMS lol.. Anyway i ll be joining the practice tomorrow morning! Honestly there's a tiny excited inside. It has been a while since I retired from the band for my exam. Hmmm.. And that weird feeling! It's kinda complicated and I don't know how to explain it.. XS Well.. Hope everything will go on smoothly tomorrow :)

Andaaa... Was celebrating Sonia and Askar's birthday @ dessert master last night!

Weee the group photo! :DD

Glad that we can still hang out together although everyone is busying to fight for their dreams now. And so do i :)

Since we found that studying in Singapore needs a high expense that out of our budget. My mom and I were then changed our option to the other schools. We've found a nice one either. Taylor's university college. Taddaaa!

I've applied it during the past few weeks. And I am going to the January intake. Am really down and struggled and disappointed at first because I was about to give up my dream school since I was younger.( forgot the age..) Nanyang Academy of Fine Arts. It's a famous school in Sg and i wished to go there too. But nevermind. Now I only hope that I can study well in the school instead of Nanyang and also reduce the economics burden of my mom at the same time. Killing two birds with one stone huh? LOL X)

And I am temporally forcing myself for an amnesia for a while. So that i can focus and focus. I've learnt that keep missing someone is not going to help myself in this kind of timing and situation. So forget it. Maybe I would forget you through these times. It will be a good thing. But if I don't, hmm.. Maybe I will tell you one day. So that you would at least know what and how I feel. But i wouldn't expect for more. I don't have the braveness to expect for anything anymore. This is just not a right time. I will forget you one day.

Well I am clear with my targets now. What I afraid is that if I couldn't make it. I hate disappointing people and I hate disappointing myself. One week. Only one week left and I know myself. But I would just try my best. I will just keep on moving :)

I think I'm used to this kind of feeling already. This kind of distance.. What a pathetic! I really miss the old days when everything's still nice. But everything is reminding me to look forward now. Nothing deserves me to stay so I wouldn't stay. Bring back all the memories! I don't need it.

Whatever. I don't care.

Forget about the heart. Focus the brain and do what I should do now.

All the best everyone! :)

I miss this :(

2011-10-27T22:25:00.003+08:00

Maybe I've forgotten the coordinates or step sizes all those things, but memories will always stay. :)
It just never been bored. I like to watch it over and over again and put the volume to the max and let it blasts off my ears! I can still remember where am I standing on this set that set, blablablaahh.. And I love the feelings when it reminds me some memories that i would never have it again in my entire life. I appreciate that a lot! :)

I miss those times. I really do!:(
Get it?

introducing you.. Nick Pitera!

2011-10-14T12:08:00.000+08:00

This is awewsome! :D

I've post it on my facebook wall but it's sad that nobody noticed it since everyone is busying for their exams. So I repost it here again!

There's a lot of other songs performed by him in youtube too.. This is just one of my favorite..

Well this is another disney song he performed. Nice but i still like the tangled song lol.. I like that song before i watched that video already.. XD

That's all lol. Hope you ll like it ;)
Enjoy!

Dear heart..

2011-10-12T23:40:00.002+08:00

Dear heart i am sad.. I'm sad that i couldn't do anything to change and save what i want back already since i missed that chance.. Can you please give me one more last chance? LAST I promise..
Okayy.. Seems like it's really only i'm the one who cares about this. AGAIN. Well i promised myself already right? Not to simply involve my emotions into anything again. But I did. So there's no more choice for me to regret since i made up my choice.
But, I'm regret now. I regret that i trust too easily. I regret that I can be satisfied too easily until i forgot all the risk i could probably meet. I regret that i put too much time and effort on something i know that wouldn't success but i still doing it. And i've missed so many things and chances. That i would never have a second chance again. What am i doing these for? Hurting myself? I am such an idiot aren't i? Why couldn't i just listen to my friends advice? There's too many question marks in my mind. It looks like already been solved, but it doesn't. I am also trying now but it doesn't prove anything..

Dear heart what should I do now? Can I still trust in you? But what I've got in trusting you everytime are just disappointment disappointment and.. disappointment. Why couldn't I just learn from the lesson? Why can't I just stay there not standing up after I fall? It seems meaningless. I stand up just to let myself to fall again? And pain up myself more? No one would care you know?
I don't want to follow you anymore stupid heart! I don't want the sad ending keeps repeating itself in every incident and experience of mine okay? This is not that whatever braveness! This is BLIND okay? Blind and fool!
I admit that I am stubborn I always trust in myself without understanding the cause and consequences. I just cannot afford any heartbreaks already okay?

But I think I was like a bit missing my way. The more I prevent myself to think about you, the more I do. I don't want it too! Because I know you wouldn't care. You wouldn't even come and view these. I bet you won't even know i have a blog lol..You wouldn't even remember. You wouldn't even care. I don't know what are you thinking. But obviously you don't need me anymore. Since I've trapped into your trap already, I have no complaint because no one asked me to do so. I just follow my heart and I dropped into it by myself. Lol. And that's why i hate and i don't want to follow my heart anymore.
Veronica Chia! So what are you still caring about it now since no one else even bother about it already?? Those memories? It was just nothing for them okay? It's over and it's done. That's it! They show you they don't care already and what are still expecting for?! Nothing would go back as before okay? Why are you still giving hopes on it? Why can't you just wake up and face the truth? WHY CAN'T YOU JUST GIVE UP? You think everything will go back like before when you wake up tomorrow? Only in your dreams! Don't you promise yourself not giving it a damn anymore? And you just broke your promise again aren't you? Useless you! Why are you making yourself so valueless? You think anyone would care? No nobody would!
No point okay no point! Duhh!

Dear mind control the heart pleasee.. Or else I might couldn't be staying focus on what we all think is right. And i might forgot to feed you sometimes, I might couldn't sleep, I might cry..sometimes. I don't know!

Sincerly,
Frustrated me.

That simplish happiness :)

2011-10-10T23:07:00.001+08:00

It was a nice day today! I mean the weather is nice and i was with nice people lol..

Anyways! Went to Pustaka today! and since it opens until 9pm due to the exam month( i'm very sure this time lol ) I stayed. And it seems pretty more fun than the day! :D

Well lets began.. I m not sure since when that i'm like already used to go and meet these two person in pustaka like almost every time ler..

This fam su who's temporary became our driver since she've got her liscence :P We just had a deal not to talk to each other.. Well it succeed.. Only in the beginning.. D:

This pig ( well we called each other pig anyway.. :D ) that we've never ever stop talking since we started it..

I always wanted to stay focusss..

*faktor pemilihan pekerjaan..tingkat upah wang tenaga blablabla$$$..*

And then it always ended up like this.. D:

*SPOT THE PLATYPUS!*

I hate myself for the non stop drawing habit like this it seems to be a waste! I mean it supposed to be on some place more suitable like.. drawing block?

And then went for dinner to continue our preparation for war! RAWRRRR!

Meet Mr. Rickchongnamhua and Mr. Gohyeehung!:D

IT"S BURNINGGG!!

The seaweeds are dancing!^^

We had our dinner at Xcuisine at somewhere in Pelita :D

The revision din goes on until the time i expect at last. Jiawen and i went back home by 730 something..? Nahh it isn't important anyway..

I love the feelings today! It's like a preview for my uni life lol.. And i just can't wait for it! X) Counting down everyday!

That feeling!

Yeshh. Counting down.

I ll miss you :(

Love,

Veronicachia :)

I want to know..

2011-10-02T20:27:00.002+08:00

Heyy are you there? How are you? Had your dinner already? What have you done today? Fun? Are you exercising now? Do you have enough sleep last night? What are you doing now? What are you thinking now? Did you drink enough water today? What have you learnt today? Anything interesting to tell today? What are you doing while you're online?

Are you okay? Do you feel happy with your recent life? Do you need my shoulders and ears? Do you miss me like how i miss you? Do you feel better without me?( well i'm not :/) Will you think of me randomly sometimes? Will you smile if you did? Are you happy? Are you sad? Are you mad? Are you down?

*blablablaaa**question marks*

I just hope i could have that braveness to ask. Like how I used to before..

Pleaseeeeeeee. I hate myself.

the recent me :)

2011-09-30T20:00:00.001+08:00

Hahaha! I saw a really awesome quote on twitter and i like it very much!

" Sometimes the best revenge is just a smile and keep moving on "

Well it really inspired me a lot! So, i am on the way now! I mean to be happy.. Well at least i am trying to smile, trying to laugh on those lame jokes like i used to before, and keep reminding myself not to look back.. I am glad that everything goes on smoothly.. well okayy.. Only when nothing reminds me about it.. I won't simply spend my tears and emotions and time(my precious time) over some unnecessary things anymore..It's time to face the reality isn't it? :) Stand up and grow up and be mature and yadaa yada yaddaaa.. Lol. But anyway i do feel better since i'm with my friends.. Lol yea they are my cure (aww!)

See, so this shows action is louder than words. Sometimes we don't really have to say much because everyone has eyes to see. They haven't realise is because maybe less intelligent or what.. (i don't know) But one day they will realise! So if you feel really bad when no one trust in you, just be patience and wait. If you're right, there ll always be some people there standing by your side. It doesn't mean that you have to argue with the others to prove that you're right, and you don't have to keep convincing the others to accept your opinion. They have their own choice to choose as you.

So i ll just remain silence and see how ll you be. :)

Hmm.. something fun?

Ohh yeaa the band appreciation dinner was just over. (It was held during the last Sunday) Hmm it was a touch one anyway. 22 (or 23?) of us form fives have been arranged as partners form by balloting. And my partner is Mr. Yii Koah Kien (we've tried to act sweet for the best partners award by obviously we failed and congrats to ryanlo and jessicajong for winning the prize! :D)

*to look at this picture, please rotate clockwise 90 degree thank you*

(LOL He don't even want to cooperate with me for the photo taking! D: )

But he's a good partner anyway :D

For more photos of the night please check this out :D Aww i miss the band! Thanks to the form fours for preparing such a great night for us. I really enjoyed it a lot! :)

And for sure i cried during the last speaking to the band.. Duhh.. == But i am really glad to grow with the band since i joined. And i appreciate the band for teaching me a lot, that makes us band members different, i mean special, instead of the others. How lucky am i! So i would like to continue my words that had been distracted by my tears during that night..

Never give up! If you think it's worth then keep moving on no matter what and you ll see the sweet fruits soon. If you want it, then make it yours. Standing at the beginning point isn't going to help anything for you to reach your target or whatever. And when you got it, appreciate and cherish every moment. Because you have no idea when are you going to loose it.Maybe it's the next second, maybe it's tomorrow, so do appreciate and enjoy every moment you could.

Fighting! :D

Uhh wait!

Before i end up my post, i would like to tell you how much i love this bunch of crazy people..

introducing you...

THE FORM FIVES!

Lol okay we were form 4 form 3 form 2 form 1 too.. But now we are form five already! (duhh forget about the name..)

Yesshhh! Them! That bunch of people who got complain together, got scolded together, having never-ending-meeting in the band room together, went MCD drive through during midnight together, appeared surprisely at someone's house during midnight of their birthday together, broke the record of having their own car in the band (lol)... I ll never forget you guys! :)

Unhappy things do happened sometimes. But it never stays long. I'm proud that we never hiding over each other. When there's a problem, we solve it. Not procrastinate it until it get worse.. Yowww i'm just glad to be one of themmm! :DDD

Okayy. it's time for full stop and studyy! @@ Enjoy while reading and remember to comment for supporting! :D

Love,

Veronicachianing! ;)

2011-09-17T15:10:00.002+08:00

Things goes on. Since i woke up from a very good dream, that doesn't belongs to me..
Reality is always disappointing. That i realised the heart breaking truth that my life had went back to black and white without something special, someone special.
They did existed before right?
That gave me warmth and laughter. And then suddenly disappear like the wind.
But why? I don't even know the reason for being banned.
Should i be grateful to you for giving me those memories? But what i'm having now is just sufferance of the memories that keeps reminding me about you almost EVERY second.
I was dead.
And i hate myself for being so anti-socialist now a days. I don't really talk much anymore although i really want to.
How long would this to be continued? I really hate it!
I really hate to repeat the same thing everyday. I really hate to start a new day without expectation and then ends up with disappointment.
Why would i have to discover these all by my own?... I think I've lost the braveness. They would never easily come back again aren't they?
Stay strong for whatever circumstances.
Sincerely, I do care.

Last words for them :(

2011-08-04T21:55:00.003+08:00

Like a dream! Everything are reaching to their ends.

Lots and lots of memories will just stay inside there and never forgotten.

saw Y2k's notes on facebook. He's right.

It should be written down so that there will be like a proof that i had been to a very great and memorable jorney with them, the CH Band.

So here's my story..

Since the confirmation of the competition name list, around the beginning of the year..

There's 22 of us form 5s.. Which are suffering in the confusion of taking part for the competition or not..

7 of us survived through the obstacles!

Like power rangers..

Ryanlo, benyaw, ericrawing, y2k, rickysim, lianling and i!:D

Although there's a bit awkwardness in the beginning.. that i have to hang around with so many boys for whole day long due to the practice..

but soon later everything turns fine.. Already like get use of it. Haha! They are so awesome!

Glad to have these guy friends that always make me laugh. i appreciate it :)

Although have been depressed, disappointed, given lots of pressure, but thanks God that Ch band have never give up!

I wont forget the feeling that we lied on the grass and waiting for benchong's command.

How we treat the people from the other school who spying us during our practice..

And the never-get-bored star counting game between jabby and i..

And then we rushed out a formation for the zone level.

lol and got champ :D

and rumors about us from those unhappy people for losing.

anyway that's not the point!:DD

Bla bla blaa..

KL!

Ermm..

it's should be counted as a tough time i think?

I remember how was the band during the first time we started practice there.

and how embarrassing we were when we went to midvalley without preparing anything including changing our sweaty practice clothes and wet shoes.. >< Yaiksss!

And the stressness when we only have 45 minutes to use the compete place for testing.

everyone was like nervous until keep doing lil mistakes! X(

Oh yea!

and practice at that beautiful place! SM Sanis Selangor! :D

Love the windy condition and the slopes there!:D

And wont forget the feeling during the competition day!

How we comfort each other not to be crying.

how we pray together with hands on shoulders :)

And the excitement in Sunway Lagoon will never be forgotten :)

I think i would never have this kind of feelings with them again.

live with a big bunch of people like 100 something.

eat together sleep together like already become a part of my family members..

After today,

it's all over.

I ll miss it :)

Because of the band, i'm so willing to plan to let my future kids to learn music, join band, and i cant wait to tell them about our stories.

Thanks for giving me such a great memory in my life.

thanks God thanks CHMBB :))

Love,

Veronica Chia

clarinetist of CH band since 2008-2011

2011-08-02T21:48:00.002+08:00

And AT LAST!

my band life have came to an end :(

Lots of feelings inside

hard to describe

But life is still life

i still have to move it on without it arent i?

SAD!

Had just completed my last mission with the band.

WORLD CHAMPIONSHIP MARCHING BAND COMPETITION!:DD

and then got the result of 6th over 22 bands.

I ll miss that band!

those crazy stuff we've done and those crazy people!

i ll miss everything :)

"Power, Pizzzas And All That Jazzzzzz!"

One band one sound, One heart one soul

2011-06-15T23:05:00.003+08:00

New post new post!

Have been doing a lot of hard work during the past times.

hope everything will be deserved.

My academics suckss!

and guess what?

i accidently passed up my drawing paper during my history exam.

And then it's like i expected.

my history teacher looked for me after the paper gave back to us.

i was busy in the band. The competition is coming very very soon.

I appreciate her to not give up on me. but i hope she understand too.

i have responsibility. it's not just about my own satisfactions.

My future is in my hand. so let me decide it.

Once it is still with me, i would be able to control everything of mine..aren't i?

Am started to get used with my recent life.

became more and more bitchy! X)

maybe i got influenced by the surroundings ahaha.

And also don even have time to think about other things else.

Damn lol i dont even have enough time to sleep!

Life is busy.

i know i ll miss these someday.

worry worry worry.

haih. D:

*shout it LOUD!

2011-05-25T21:03:00.005+08:00

Well..it's time for some updates.

Exam was finally over.

got a really tough time during exam.

this stupid thing had caused me 3 HUGE pimples,skin allergic from lips to ears,and many sleepless night.

but the good fact is, i lost few kg and whitter than

before(yayy!) coz keeping myself in indoor. LOL.

Okayy back to life.

SERIOUSLY LACK OF VITAMIN K!

my blood clothing was so bad.

when my broken pimple was bleeding

the blood just came out like never going to s

op!

it's like.. aww my red blood cell :(

haha!

I AM A WEIRDOOO.

Andaa..

we din talk for almost 1 week. since that day.

I know he wouldn't come and look at my blog (well i din expect..)

so i think it would be okay here.

Like stranger!

i hate this weii..!

Seriously want to know..

do you even care about my exist?

or i am just a person who was always there whenever you need me?

how long would this to be continued?

i hope it's not forever..

You know.. i don want to be the person who always find you first like i'm so desperate..== seriously.

Din i mentioned??

my phone bill suddenly risen up to RM500 something without any reason and informing!

well 0.facebook and wi fi are normal and w

ouldnt charge right?

THEN WHY!!?

I hate the feeling of guiltiness to my parents although i can swear i din spend that lot of money.

Dammit.

dammit deep deep.

FML.

Let's shout out LOUD!

Smile again!

2011-05-15T19:32:00.002+08:00

Wondering how much time i left for my life.

I sympathize my friends that went for studies.

first week, they update about their great life.

showing off new place new surrounding new friends new lappy new hairstyle..

lots and lots of photo been uploaded to their blog or facebook.

And then they will start complaining about their assignment and many thing else.

soon later they'll start to miss their family and friends.

their home their bed their pets their favorite dishes by their moms..

I am exactly that kind of person!

seriously cant wait to get my uni life started.

but i know i ll regret of that kind of life sooner later.

I depend.

i afraid to be alone.

i am such a coward.

I don't do laundry or tidy up my bed by myself.

Just.. wondering..worrying..

when i'm getting tired..getting bored.

will anybody be there for me?

Don promise anything coz you have no idea about what's going happen up next.

Getting mature is important

so let's jiayou okay?:)

Yayy!

smile!!

ehh noo..

LAUGH!:DD

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

2011-05-06T18:06:00.002+08:00

很想知道在你眼里我是什么在你心里我又是什么

你每次说过的话你还记得吗？

不要告诉我你在努力了

如果我不值得我就没有必要知道

不要让我觉得我特别重要

不要让我期望更多

因为当我跌到的时候就会跌得更深更痛

我不奢望道歉也请你原谅我的想太多

必须承认你真的蛮有吸引力的

我只是很失望因为当初期望太高了

到头来我只是一个垃圾桶

一个装满你心事和抱怨的垃圾桶

满了就倒了

连回忆和希望也全都倒了

也许不会再那么理你了

很累了 :)

a post without points

2011-05-03T21:03:00.003+08:00

Getting bored with my recent life.

looking forward for new adventures to discover.

But, what choice do i have?

when everyone is moving on, i have to follow the wave too.

to avoid myself for being a weirdo.

i mean, different with the others.

So what's the point what's the point what's the point VeronicaChia!!?

you've totally lost your way!

This is annoying.

now the dream finally came true.

with the sacrifice of something more important that would never come back again.

I am so stupid.

And now who can bring me to that neverland?

2011-04-29T21:24:00.002+08:00

I hate that when responsibility all went up to myself silently without knowing.

I hate my busy body style.

I hate myself that never refuse.

I hate my grandpa scolding my kakak with nonsense reason.

I hate people ordering me like i should help them.

I hate people pinching my face cause that would reminded me my birthmark.

I hate people comes near with me whenever i am hot and in sweat.

I hate that when my phone bill reminds me that i should save up.

I hate people telling me how serious is my dandruff caused. I know it was just skin allergic!

I hate people tease me which affects my self-esteem. You have to know, it's only left a few.

I hate the unfairness of the way people treating between good looking girls and the normal one.

I hate people acting cute.

I hate uncivilized person.

I hate a message without reply.

I hate guys with long front hair who thinks that it looks nice.

I hate people making noise when i am trying to focus.

I hate those person whose trying to get attention from everyone.

I hate people doing something with purpose.

bla bla blahh.

Sometimes you just have to shout it loud.

you have no reason to suffer it. ;)

2011-04-27T20:53:00.002+08:00

Randomly found this pic.

for me, being alone is pitiful and shameful.

Please don make me feel that :(

I don want to be the moon.

bright but full of loneliness

romantic but filled up with mysterious smell.

I want to be the star!:D

because at least i am not alone :))

2011-04-27T20:46:00.002+08:00

People said that everyone have their own guardian angel.

so can i be yours? :)

A post with full of fire! AAAAAAAAArghhh!

2011-04-26T18:53:00.004+08:00

After 10 days intensive camp,

i can imagine how much my homework will be..

T__T

I dunno how to describe my feelings now.

tiring frustrating terrifying angry sad

but somehow exciting?

it's only happens in very very few percentage for the now-me.

What happened to me?

a marshmallow would be able to walk alone to band room during the night already!

Something really disappointed me these few days.

I don want to mention bout it anymore D:

and thanks to someone. Somebody mad on me liao.

You know?

it's like WTF i swear i din do that!

hate that feelings kay?

Don always tell me that you've changed.

prove it if you really did!

Damn you! this is not the first time already!

I cant imagine if there's still next time.

i am angry but you know i wont scold you.

VeronicaChia wont scold people.

unless you are challenging my patience.

Then i will warn you not to do that.

you might be regret.

Don think i can always forgive.

extinct volcano can also be explode crazily someday.

DON EVER THINK ABOUT IT!

2011-04-04T19:05:00.003+08:00

Can you smell the stress-ness in the air? D:

I can.

My brain is full with the studies and 35 percent for band now.

no more space for the others.

Catch up catch up catch up.

sometimes i just need to breath. Fresh air.

I NEED FRESH AIR!X(

Smarter people are all around.

cannot be looked down.

I cant loose.

because i cant lose.

Jiayou!:)

special words to a special someone :)

2011-03-28T20:07:00.004+08:00

You are so special.

i cant describe.

you are more than a friend, but not until THAT way :)

Sometimes when i thought about you,

unknown pain filled up my heart.

it's like.. i'm losing you.

I don want that to be happened!:(

Naturally,

i feel safe with you. With no reason.

although you're not gentleman, but i always feel safe when you're there.

it's like.. " It's fine at least you're there :) "

You are the BEST person to talk to :))

So that's why i might wondering sometimes. I afraid that the history will be repeated itself.

I afraid that i couldn't control my mind, again.

I never realize how important you are until i noticed that you started to be far away from me day by day.

You started to have your new life.

i afraid that you couldn't remember my name one day. :(

But

Will you EVER see this?

will you know that i am talking about you?

am I important for you too?

*questions without answer*

Arghh!

IMY!:(

2011-03-27T20:42:00.001+08:00

Stressed!

What is life?

2011-03-23T21:15:00.005+08:00

**Cried.

it's okayy vero.

They are just passing by your life, they wont step into your life for you.

they have their own life too :)

But at least the memories are exist.

they will never lost unless you try to forget.

They will always be inside here :)

*pumping*

And now i realized!

*according to my question on my tittle..*

Life is like bus stop!

ahaha!:DD

Stay strong!

♥

shhhh...

2011-03-19T19:51:00.002+08:00

You are getting more important to me.

I am more clearly to what i want.

every moves of mine are also getting obvious.

well i am not on purpose.

Just.. i cant stop myself for being attracted by you

Lol i dunno how to express it.. :S

We're like from the different world.

you have lots of friends, unlike me.

Anyone of them are all prettier than me. (LOL)

and they're all your BFF.

So who am i?

i know myself. i'll just let it go.

Shhh...

This time, i wont let anybody know anymore.

i remember how serious is the problem caused last time.

2011-03-16T14:51:00.002+08:00

Thanks God.

i m still breathing.

it's weird. really really weird.

i dunno why,

everything goes on too quietly.

seems like there's a big challenge in front?

unpeaceful.

I might be thinking too much.

Since knowing the japan earth quack and tsunami,

i just cant stop for thinking too much.

was having dinner with the form 5s and Mr. Nonami last night.

we talked about end of the world.

i'm like.. "damn i hate this topic"

but still, the convo was going on.

I am afraid.

afraid to face the disaster and the pain.

But i know heaven is better than here.

i just want to have my own future.

God bless us all. :(

Just appreciate.

i hate this kind of mood. :/

2011-03-14T21:01:00.003+08:00

Pray hard,

for everything.

一路走好

2011-03-12T17:23:00.002+08:00

I was like having a dream.

Phone rings after i woke up from sleep.

it's Michelle's voice, obviously like cried before.

I was shocked with the news.

seriously hope it's a dream..

He leaved. Forever.

God takes him to a better place.

but cant believe he leave so fast. without any hint.

The last day i saw him was also the last day of exam.

we were all in the bus stop.

I teased him for his account. i bet he will get good marks for it.

Rest in peace.

Please, cherish.

STRONGER!

2011-03-11T18:57:00.003+08:00

I saw a girl who always acts happy before.

She just cant stop talking about her self-centered friends

she adds :D and :) symbols after almost every sentences of her post.

She was stupid.

she asked everyone to stay strong, and she always failed to be strong.

maybe she is strong.

But she never resists for herself although been treated unfair.

like sufferance is the best way. :/

She treat those valueless memories like jewel.

like her life.

She afraid to see broken hearts.

so she never broke a persons' heart.

cause she knows it feels bad.

she knows that feeling.

She never say no.

not because of she is free to help,

she just dunno how to say no.

She always thinks that she's ugly.

Because of the over-teased by her "friends"

she has negative% of confidence.

Stupid her.

She was lost.

But thanks God,

for pulling her up.

through the angels :)

They show her respect,

she got her confidence back again :D

******

I saw her again that day.

She becomes more mature.

she remeasured her view about friendship.

She was on the way to adjust her hunchback.

she reset her targets.

she made more new friends.

she has more brave to talk.

she start to be interested to dress herself up without worrying to be teased by the others.

Glad to see those improves.

Thank you.

I become stronger and stronger :)

pray hard!

2011-03-11T18:01:00.003+08:00

Oh my!
There was a tsunami and 8.6 earth quack in north Japan!
:(

Pray to God.
please, protect everyone of us with your strong wings.
With you, we are always safe.

Human!
Please wake up!!
stop being fool and appreciate to what we have!The sky the sunset the stars the earth the wind.
Even your breath!

This is so unfair for those who are trying hard to save all of these disasters you've made!
Love our environment please.

We all have that responsible to make it.
as long as we are a part of this world.

As a living thing!

Hope they are fine.

pray hard :(

cupcakes fever! ♥

2011-03-10T20:04:00.010+08:00

Obviously gave up with the account tomorrow. :/
too much to catch up in one night though i have to start from basic.. ><

Soo..
Maybe next time!:D

just like i mentioned in my tittle.
I was suddenly crazily in love with the cute cupcakes!♥♥

See how adorable are them!X)

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♥

even doggies love cupcakes too!♥

Anddaa..
There will be a one week holiday after tomorrows' last paper!XD
ll be spending it with the band camps..
Ahaaa!

smiles :)

a late update!:D

2011-03-07T18:21:00.002+08:00

Gahh.

i know i shouldnt.

i was like leaving my blog there for thousands years,

and updating it during exam time.

ahaha crazyy..

Actually i wanna update it before but i have nothing to share.

soo..

yep. here i am :D

was sitting for eng, math and sej today.

the eng was like "HAHA!"

and the math was like "pheww!~"

and the sej was like "OH NOOOO!!T__T"

just 4 more days to goo!X3

The mssm was just over.

all the prefect are in charged with it.

Damn that's mean we have to be tanned very seriously too.

just like i expect.

sunburn and peeling off. X/

Though, no time to study! x__x

But it's okayy.

i discovered a new place through ziyu and sheryl!

Ju ju and tong tong!!XD

i bought 4 hairbands and 2 pairs of hair clips through these 4 days long mssm.

Ahaha!

satisfied! :DD

Lol watched black swan with the prefects friends during mssms' lunch break.

(we din snake the break was up to 3 hours XD)

obviously the scenes had been cut very much already. but still..==

We don know it's 18+ at first okayy..-.-

But anyway it's still nice.

the dance and the shocking part that makes you forgot to breath.. :S

*the photos will be uploaded soon!:DD*

Getting better in controlling myself!:D

so that i wont easily get hurt anymore!:DD

Yayy!

Okay, fullstop. *dad nagging*

2011-01-04T22:40:00.002+08:00

为什么每次我感觉得到的都只能是错觉？

难道真的就像奇迹一样的那么难让我遇见吗？

知道跌到了又自己爬起来是多么的难吗？

当你发现你的推动力根本不属于你的时候。。

当你被期望拉得高高的又被失望狠狠的摔下来的时候

那种痛

又有谁可以忍受毕竟不止一次了

那种毫不起眼的人永远只配当路人甲！

意义这两个字

我想在我生命中已经暂时没有什么意义了吧

对不起我不是超人

就算是超人也会流眼泪 :)

就算多么多人说我怎么变了都好

我不会再被什么期望引诱了 :)

我也不会再为任何人改变了

这种感觉我受够了！

我很累 :'(

What i've done :)

2011-01-02T13:26:00.025+08:00

Second day of 2011!:)

I enjoy my time with doing nothing at home!:D

Finally i have time to keep myself in front of the comp and hanging on net..

And day dreaming a lot!:DD

It's like.. "HOORAYY!:D"

My skin allergic was getting worst.

It's all over my leg. :(

don feel like going out though.

it looks so horrible and even can scares pple lol..

Okay come on my time machine let's look back to 2010!:D

Hmm..

Orientation programme and crazy music training for our first band concert!XI

The group leader shows the bad zi pai habit in front of her newbies.. ==

We practice like hell to make that night perfect :)

Although it's really tiring..

But that's why we have to work harder!:)

It's all for our dream:))

And then..

We did it!;)

Another miracle we achieved!

After that there were school concert and a more bian tai training for state level!XS

(You can see the practice is really kik coz i don even have that time to take photo!><)

1 July 2010 :)

our show time!

And obviously we did it ;)

And also thanks to a special visitor who comes and visit us during the day before of our comp and belanja me a coke from pete's and the jiayou messages during 6 something in the morning! That makes me cry when i'm on the phone with that person until pn soh comes and comfort me.. ==

Hahaha Rodrick Ting!:DD

No longer later..

our 2010/2011 board was borned.

A group of random, crazy, peace pple which leaded by Mr. Ryan Lo to continue the journey of the band by leading and teaching the juniors to reach a higher target in the future.

And then it's the appreciation dinner!;')

My best potato friend and me :)

The Pandora's box!XS

Clarinets 2010!:') ♥

And then it's a lot of random stuff mix together!

lil aunts' wedding ☺ foodfair ☺ prefects ☺ exams☺ .. BAND CAMP!! ♥♥

lil break with cousins during shopping time!XD
the bride :)

fresh roses all over the ball room!>< ( i want it too during my wedding in the future..)form 4s dinner with Mr.Nonami

The Saturday band prac :D

♥♥

Woohoo!XD
What happen jiawen!!?
Our miss camp commander a.k.a the committees' alarm clock ;P

They're so cute!

Sanji!:)

The most tiring but worthy camp ever!;)

Haha and then it's the blablabla camp which i mentioned in my last post :)

the ld camp, maching camp formation camps..

Band prac for 2011 band concert.. @@

CHRISTMAS NIGHT!:D

me and miss universe!
chewling chewling chewling chewling :)michelleeeeee~~! :PTehchingean and Ngyihong!:D

Christyyy~~ :D my lao zu zong..XD

They fight for being the santa claus of the night! LOL
wenyiiiiii~ :D
kham kham kham kham kham!:D
Special guest of the night!:D leeyih and chingmei!:))
acting cute!XO
the almost-perfect ryan lo yi kai..XDcan you see our eyes?O__O
Hahaha pinky sim!!!
the person who cooks with me during band camp. :D
:)

JILLY :D

we looks like couple in this pic huh? :O

CLUMSY LAGGING LOH HUI PING!:D

For more christmas night pics, please check out my facebook :)

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

It's school day tomorrow!

see you soon!:)

sorry i don like to set tittle for my post it's totally RANDOM!:DD

2010-12-26T19:51:00.004+08:00

Halo everyone!:D

it's been so long time since my last update.

sorry i was too lazy hehehe. :)

It's almost 2011 already!

just one more week..

everything changed during this holiday..

i mean,

another couple, friends with new hairstyle,friends return from overseas..

and this camp that camp..

Hahaha.

i ll gonna miss this kind of feeling..

Okayy update update!:D

What i've done during this december..

Marching camp and formation camp!:D

By the way can you guess what are they trying to tell you?

Yea right it's 25 DEC!

HOHOHO!!~

CHLD CAMP!!:D

first time being a part of the 24 season drum performers..

it's.. " XDD "

but i got quite less time to be with them coz gotta practice for band concert..

so it becomes a bit weird. I mean when i go there i have not much friends to talk to..

Hahaha but it's okay anyway good new experience!;D

What feeling i'm having now is..

wow! i m going to be form 5 soon!

just one more week..
TIME TO FREAK OUT!:D

cherish the time left..

What i care is not important anymore..

i ll just let go until i meet the right one in the right time..

wont convince myself anymore..

and wont be stupid wont be childish wont be silly wont be idiotic hahaha

what i have to do now is fight for my future!

You too!

We all have to decide our own future coz it's belongs to us..forever until we die!

2011 LETS GO!!♥

Be stronger and stronger!:))

♥

2010-11-27T15:54:00.002+08:00

After the band camp,

everyone seems busy for doing their own stuff.

The form 5s are having their SPM

and most of the form 4s are in the chung hua camp and some of them are travelling..

the form 3s..busying with their orientation stuff..

and the lower forms..hmm they must be busying on something too!

Oh well.

I din expect for anyone or anything to fill up my holidays with me..

everyone have their own stuff to do.

i can handle it by myself though

watching tv or hanging online aren't that bad i did it everyday during school day..

I am sick of the outing plans.

how big is miri!?

when you think of outing your mind straight comes out with the word"PARKSON"

this is so.... hahaha?

Lol i cant believe that i'm going to sms some boring message to my friends coz i'm too bored.

i'm usually not replying these kind of message but how i wish i can get a reply now.. D:

Okayy let's talk about the band camp!:D ♥

although there's some problems during the camp,

and it ends with a "SUCK" word.

But it's still quite nice!

Anyway it's my last band camp liao.

As long as we all tried our best to make it best already.

just let it be..

Am too tired.

those are meaningless for me already coz i realise i'm meaningless for them too.

just a pity maid who helping them to do anything without getting mad.

like i have no life..

Wait bah!

i'll let you people regret for treating me like this as revenge. :)

i really meant it!

From now on i'm going to love myself more.

i wont care anymore :)

Enjoy your holidays!;))

stay strong!♥♥

2010-11-17T16:55:00.002+08:00

Gotta overnight at school for the last preparation work for band camp!

It's..

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAaaaaa!!!

Shout for the excitement

shout for the panic

and the feelings like you know you forgot something but you cant remember what isit.. -.-

Just jiayou!♥

count down for 14 hours and 42 minutes! (starts by 7.30 am==)

2010-11-02T19:23:00.002+08:00

Wondering what ll the angmo think if they saw us malaysians' blog..

"Waa this person kik o can write in 3 different language!" (lol maybe more if including the dialect!:D)

Lol ok enough..

Grr why cant i become more selfish a bit so that i wont get hurt??

Just get used of it.

to be alone..

enjoy your time when you're alone.

there must be something good!:)

You know..

sometimes the things you care just doesnt meant anything!!

so don expect for too high..

you might fall down.

Err..

i hate your style your attitude your thinking and even your voice!

JUST GO AWAY!

*(okay every paragraph are mentioned about different things.please don messed up ;D)

Enjoying my life with lots of works!

I hope the hard works will really proved by something good someday..

I need the "jiayou" and the "are you okay?" to continue the journey

Who cares even the words are fake, but it can still warm a persons' heart :)

i know if you be honest to a person,you ll get the same thing from them too!

so what should i fear about?:D

I wont care anymore.

about those stupid nonsense things.

When i think back, i'm really wanting to punch myself for doing those stupid actions..

so that's why people oweys thinks that i'm crazy.. :)

************

Arghh!
The exam is over already!:D
woohooo!!

2 more weeks to go!!~
BAND CAMP BAND CAMP BAND CAMP!!!:D
hahahahaha! :D

hope you know who you are:)

2010-10-14T21:17:00.003+08:00

每个人　每个故事

只看在你是怎样去看待你的故事

你可以　有手有脚也很幸福

你也可以　拥有全世界

但却活得不快乐

选择　往往是不完美的

但一旦选择了就不要轻易后悔放弃

“为什么我和别人不一样？”

“为什么你要和别人一样？？”

既然上帝为你安排了这个角色就必有祂的理由

不要抱怨　不可抱怨　不必抱怨！！

因为你拥有的同时也是别人没有的

我们不是不一样

你不是不一样

你是特别　你是点缀

是你让我们耀眼　哪有什么好可耻的吗？

要光荣　因为你拥有的

因为知足，　就会常乐:)

Yea maybe we did have many unhappy things before but that's all over right?

i wont forget the message you sent me that night.

I know, friends are forgiven.

I swear i'm trying hard to do that, so you too.

Heard something before and guess what?

I'm seriously mad!

stop saying yourself are different and not worthly!

it's enough with the "difference and distance" thing

we're all same!

not scolding but hope this short post can maybe wake you up.

maybe these are all i can do..

Hope you'll have the chance to see this.

and hope you'll know who you are.

sms me if you saw this post:)

and know what?

i miss your high pitch friend:]

I'm tired for those sensitive topic that destroyed our friendship.

and honestly, you are an important character that they cant live without.

Think positively, actually you got more!;)

and you know,

i wont dare to straightly post this on your wall..

it's too... awkward..==

Anyway,

let God decide:)

*waiting for your sms!!!:DD

2010-09-25T18:25:00.000+08:00

*UPDATE*

* Since the last update, i'd also wrote a letter for applying to transfer to art stream.
so here it goes. I'd transfered to art stream after the hari raya holidays.
so now i am a 4A1 student le!!
It's quite annoying when i'm getting good with my classmates and start to make friends in 4S6, and my mom finally approved me to transfer to art stream at the same time..

Owwkaaeeyy then..
the new classmates aree....sort of friendly..?
i know some of them before..
soo..
i am trying to blend myself into them..
JIAYOU BAH!
:D

*Anddd...
guess what?
it doesnt mean you are weak if you give up. it means you are strong enough to let go. :)
I appreciate that i am trying hard to keep myself busy so that i wont think anything negative..that's good yea?
I know..just keep it natural..
Busy is good sometimes!
you wont have time to think muchso you wont be worrying this and that..
So i guess i am fine now.
maybe getting nearer to that "FINE" very much than before..
;)

*Just heard that some double face like backstab very much!
Oh yea? that is because they jealous to what we have..
i know it's hard to reach the same laver but try yourself
don simply pollute our hard work..
:)

* Haha isit too early? i am looking for someone for going study after finishing my secondary school! I'll miss all the memories i had here but instead of this, i'm quite looking forward for the independence life i'll have. Cook yourself, wash your own dish and laundry,buy your own clothes with without mom's opinion(well i always ask from my mom's opinion when i want to buy some clothes, coz i think she has a better fashion sense than me..==), and do the asignment till late midnight with a hot drink in hand..
it will be fun but i know i will be tired someday.. i will miss my mom's cook and i will miss those memories though..

Ehh..the time is still long yet..

*

2010-08-29T21:30:00.002+08:00

Suddenly,
i miss the time when we are all together.

when we playing true or dare in front of the foyer
XD
looking for that woman's kid at the beach
:O
playing hide and seek all around the school
:D
or before jilly and kham leave,
our last heart to heart face to face conversation..
:]
walk to the toilet together at night if we have practice for band concert,
and leave the marshmellow alone(mostly me..-.-) purposely but hiding behind the wall and ready to give him or her a big shock and feel happy for their screaming.
:S

or since nim and ean leave,

the unlimited watermelon and liang teh supply
8D
and the 75 75 push up and sit up after 2 or 3 round of padang jog.
:X
the damn chlorophyll..-.- that dirts my tee..
>:(
the shadow game between us clarinets
X)
hiding behind someone to hide off the sun
;D
the bet between me and jabby, see who found the first star..
and she always wins.
but we all think that is just a satelite..-.-
XP
snacks all around our tilam
:I
and woke up by 1am something to bath.
with jiawen jabby michelle vienchai brenda
XS
drinking 100 plus EVERYDAY like drinking plain water.
@@
having delivery pizza with form 4s for lunch
:B

and many many many more!!><
so are you still remember?
:))

well..
if you never let go, you ll never move forward!
>:O

jayou bah veronica chia!
i know it's hard..
;(

wake up

2010-08-28T20:58:00.005+08:00

Hi there bloggie!:)
sorry for ignoring you coz i am really lazy for updating you.

First of all,
i want to say sorry to myself.
for doing those stupid insane things on myself.
i should be crazy.
that's totally NOT me!
wondering what am i thinking about..

And..
i am tired to be a fake me.
i am tired to pretend that i am strong and emotionless
or whatever.
i am tired to act like i am supreme or a great backstabber that hates everyone.

I've changed.
and i know.
i just dont want to admit it. :/

But while i'm looking for the reason,
of course i found it too.
and it's annoying..
and it's totally broken up my heart!

i cant stand those who making fun of me.
i though this might get some respect.
i became weird..
i'm not sure whether my plan is success or not.
but i am sure i'm not going to try it again!
it hurts everyone instead of me only..
i wont be happy.

This is sooo stupid!

Yep.
it wont be second time.
i will forget this.
for doing these nonsence.
i am so sorry for worrying those who cares bout me,
especially mum, jabby and wen.
i not a good liar,
especially when i'm looking in their eyes..
jabby you are really great!
i cant stop telling the truth to you!:D
i promise i wont be silly anymore.
it's not worthly.
i seriously feel ashame of it right now!:(
i cant get anything..

I am me!
God gave me a strong heart and He wants me to use it by the right way.
not like this..
sorry..
:(

God, please fill up my incomplete heart with you wamth,love,peace and forgiveness.
i seriously need it right now!:'(
*pray hard*

[ i apologise ]
stay strong!:)

2010-08-05T21:16:00.002+08:00

对啊我是长得难看
关你屁事了？
每个人都是妈妈生的
换作你你会怎样？
难道你自己就是完美的了吗？
更过分的话还有但我至少还懂得分寸
还算是有些教养

嘲笑人之前先看看自己！
你以为你的条件很好了吗？
真不知道你哪里找来这个墙那么厚的脸皮去取笑别人
还有哪里来的脸皮去吩咐别人帮你做这个做那个的
人家脾气好没跟你计较罢了！
你不会不好意思的吗？
真是怪了

真的忍够了
又不是要你来娶我我长得难不难看不用你来操心！
还说自己曾经也被人嘲笑过明白那种委屈
那你应该体谅！
不是用一样的方式去对待人！

做人是用头脑思考不是用身体思考！
看看你自己恶不恶心啊！？
我不想吵架！
反正每次你都是对的！
不要以为这样全世界都会顺你！

没关系天有眼
不必为这种没有见识的人动怒
不值得
反正他活在他那个自己骗自己的世界很快乐
悲哀。。

2010-08-01T22:01:00.002+08:00

When your smile doesnt makes me panic anymore,
i pretend i'm not.

When your msg doesnt makes me excited anymore,
lol you cant see it.
:P

When i dont wait for you anymore while i know u're behind me,
well i already slower my steps.

When i saw your emo status on facebook or either msn and i din leave comments on it anymore,
i really want to! but i afraid you wont reply coz u always do so!:(

When we both busy on our things and din meet each others for almost whole day,
i want to go find you but i don have a good reason! This must be weird!><

Coz i know i am not that one who makes you smile
who makes your face turn red
who makes your heart beat faster
who make you panic
who makes you care..

I know i'm not that one..
isn't it good for you?
so there ll be no more annoying person who always freaking around you le.

at least i'm trying hard!
but i'm still not sure whether i can do it or not..
isshh...

So that's it!
another emo post.. :P

God bless!:)
stay strong and smiles!=)

2010-07-30T18:29:00.003+08:00

Was having dinner with the form 4s and mr nonami last nite..
it was nice!:)
personal mini steamboat with watermelon juice.
not more than RM30!!
quite okay la i promise i'll go there gain next tmie if got chance:)

and today....
headache since just now doing backdrop with the others special function partners!><
damn

Arghh i miss them!!><
but honestly i miss those memories more than them
cos i know we all changed a lot in these couple months.. :(
the feeling is not same anymore...

how i wish i could say it out loud!
but i'm speechless now..
weird..
;((

so empty..
lol i'm so lack of love!:D

I'm sad and i really meant it!
not to attract pple's attention..
but there's a same question..
would you care?:(

suan liao
nobody ll understand.

Anyway God bless:)
stay strong!;)

2010-07-28T21:15:00.002+08:00

It's a long long time.. :/

when the sparking stars doesn't looks attractive anymore.
when the bell rings for the recess, and it doesn't makes me excited anymore..

you know,
sometimes i would like to keep myself away from thinking those memories.
cos i know it ll hurts me. :(

Yep,
it's like hell!><

be strong
be strong
be strong!!

keep reminding myself but the sound in my mind getting softer and softer
lol i am so weak!!><

hate to carry on lots of responsible.
it's tiring :(

anyway cheer up!
:)

2010-07-20T21:30:00.002+08:00

Erm..
just a lil update for my blog..

actually just saw my older post.
under my expect..
almost all of them are emo post..
haha
so the conclusion is i am a EMO person?
hahaha Hanim influences me!!XD

Yep.
life's like games.
when you reach a higher level,
there are oweys some more challenges waiting for you.

maybe already make it easy liao gua.
i feel not that pain when i face the same problem le..
and my biggest fear!
i hate lonliness!!!><

so now i see how would i be when i'm alone..
it's like?
robot??
everyday wake up school duty eat sleep..
obviosly there's something missing..
but i cant figure it out..
but isit that important?
i'm already emotionless now..
it's empty there and i dunno how to fill it up..
and dunno what to fill it up

haha
just no eye dear!!XD

At last!
another emo post again!:D
owwkayy let's change a topic!

am going to join the 30 hours famine during the 22 of August if i'm not wrong..
with chingean and yihong and maybe some of their classmates?
hahaha i dont know!:P

and then st.co school concert gua...
with alvin ting chai jie and maybe some others form 4s..
ehh..
not sure who's going yet..
hmmmmp..

I MISS BAND I MISS BAND I MISS BAND!!!><
memoriessss!!
you are so sweet but you're hurting me again!

i was putting all my heart and effort on it.
and now i realise..
i was just wasting my time to do something impossible.
that was so......
so how should i explain it..?-.-
*speechless*

GRAHH that's all le gua.. :)
jiayou i'm pulling my soul back.
at least i'll rmb how to smile again lol!:D

Owwkayyy
gotta go sleep le buaixx!:)
Smiles and stay strong and pray hard!!X))

2010-07-18T18:58:00.003+08:00

挣扎。

我不停的尝试摆脱这该死的折磨，
却被它缠的越来越紧
甚至令我窒息。

天哪！
我只是一个被回忆侵蚀的可怜虫。
也许这一切都是我自找的不是吗？

对了，
和当初的感觉一模一样。
但唯一让我放不下的是
我们一起有过的回忆
是无可取代的！

是厌倦了吗？
但这次会像上次那么走运吗？
还会有人来扶我一把吗？

我要的不只是回忆！
可是我能还奢望什么？
确确实实是不一样了。
已经尽最大的努力了不是吗？

麻木
真的很想笑起来
但
当你连对自己唯一的目标都感到绝望时，
真的是很难找到微笑的理由。

我很想他，
但事实逼我忘记他。
我很想哭，
但我发现我找不到肩膀。
我很想笑，
但我找不到理由。
how annoying...

我真的变了！
至少我尝试了！

我要求的是最基本的尊重！
难道这样都太过分了吗？

又是回到最初的话题：
长得不够漂亮就不会有人关心
声音不够爹人就不会被人注意到
不出名就没有机会
心美又怎样！？
事实已经证明一切了!

需要安慰的时候，
需要鼓励的时候才发现到：
“天哪！我怎么一个人！？”

也许我真的不该那么在乎那些以为很在乎自己的人。
爱自己最好。
不敢相信我既然说出这些话。

认了。
but at least
i know i'm not perfect but do you!?

hoo i feel better now..
just express my anger out no offence yar..
damned geram!!!>:(((

2010-07-12T18:48:00.002+08:00

Yepp.
another day:)

and also.
the same question appears in my mind again and again.
and i just give the same answer again and again..
Always.
i'm always keeping myself away to face the truth.
what for?
i already know the conclusion..

Owwhh i am so annoying!
why should i keep fooling myself?><
haha like kham said..
another emo post!:D

no la not that emo:)
just ARTISTIC=)
hehe..

i realised,
It's not that hard to be alone ehh.
good or bad?

was hate to be alone.
but sometimes when you're forced to be alone,
you have no choice..
so this is life:)

Hmm nothing more to say le.
Jiayou bah!:)

Stay strong:)
pray hard:)
keep smiling:)

Smiles:)

2010-07-09T19:33:00.003+08:00

An unexpected bad news spoiled our dream.
it comes so sudden
and strong enough to take away all our hard work and smile and tears and sweat.
unexpectedly,
the first and last.
admit to it.
this is life:)

But so what!??
We're still keep moving!:D

Was the election today.
yea..
uniform officer:)
ll give u all my best!
haha like pn soh said.
i ll control my tears le:)
hehe:))

Daini Chingean Yihong!!!
well you are most of the reasons that i'm so unwilling this election to come. :(
and thanks:)
i'll prove to you that you did the right choice
promise.. :)

you already know how much i'll miss you.
i don think i need to mention it again and again haha.. -.-

************************************************************************************

i am speechless..
i am sad..
but i know you don care.
it's unecessary to post it here.

QWERTYUIOPASDFGHJKLZCVBNM,!!!!:(((((((((((((

hehehe.. :)

2010-07-05T18:15:00.003+08:00

Seriously want to update a post now..

coz i oweys stop during the half way coz lazy to continue anymore..

HAHA!:D

okayy..

so wat's going on!!?

hmm.........

Was the zone comp..

what we practice for the whole month no matter it's school day or raining day or whatever..

it's just our dream..

yea we did it..

with 65.6 marks if i'm not wrong..

qualified in the national level..

and what ll be happen next..

really cant see it..

God,

please lead us to the end.
just like you oweys did:)

Okayy next..

everyone seems so empty since our coaches leave..

:(

owhh come on!!~

and also..

like lost our directions..

haha

And it's really reach the end liao..

and also the begining..

well i miss it a lot!!

but still have to keep going..

no matter what..

everyone is arranged to be keep growing up..

so no big deal rite?

hope so..

so cherish.

to those who always remind u your mistakes.

to those who always help you arrange this and that.

to those who lend you their shoulder when you need to cry on it.

to those who always ask"are you okay" when you are getting sick or when something bad happens to you.

to those who always company you when you are alone at bus stop.

to those who teach you maybe just basic with paitient and stop no matter what they're doing even their homework.

to those who still comfort you first when they know you are sad. although they feel sad at the same time,too.

to those who always worry bout you but they din prove it in front of you.

to those who doing something good for you while you don understand them.

to those who never give up on you.

to those who take care of you when you are sick.even during midnight..they always try their best..to give us the best one..

to those who lead you during band camp.they are always the craziest one,and the most tired one.but they never say it loud.

to those who organise everything for us.we think it's easy..

and so on..

they company us during our hardest time.

and cheer us up.

anytime and also everytime. :)

really don want them to go.

but we cant control time..

so just appreciate..

Last two days.

appreciate it very much.

trying to hold the time as much as i can..

try not to waste any second to stay with them.

try not to let my tears drop,again.

JIA YOU BAH!!:D

hahaha i am speechless now.. :)

Time go slower..

i want to capture every picture of these two days.

please:(

Be strong!

stronger stroNGER and STRONGER!!:D

cheer up!:)

Smiles=)

2010-06-19T16:46:00.002+08:00

Yayy!
just back from sing and now at kch.. :)
it's really a tiring trip
haha
but fun!:D

had update my clothes a lot
but find nothing to buy for my friends as souvenir.. :(
maybe just some chocolate and bagua?
oww forgive me..
hahahahaha?

I miss band a lot!
just relise that the venue and date had changed to our school..
and also..
1 july 2010
our big day:)

i think i may be the last person who know this in the world..-.-
hahahahaha!!
jia you ba just 10 more days to go?
haha

hope i wont forget anything..
jia you bah..
just a short update..
i've been keep away from comp and tv and hp for almost 3 to 4 days!!><
owh man FLINSTONE>>@@

keep in touch!
ll be back and see you very very very very soon!:)

2010-06-13T19:32:00.002+08:00

Yea it's me again.

Today was such a boring day!
keep looking for something to do but then give up during the half way.
frens are all offline.
cant find pple to chat on msn.

wanted to do my homework but guess what?
i lost it.
great..
i am sure that carina wont believe this..-.-
haha

yea my mind is really blank now..
i smile so hardly..
why?
it's so tiring..

everyday
doing the same things with same emotion..
lying myself with the same excuse.
and trying hard for the same reason..

what do i need now?
i dont know...
:(

hey i can see your loneliness..
since they're gone.
i'll be glad to be your best friend if you want.
i can company you to toilet during dark an company you to jog the whole padang if you are alone.
if you don mind,
don forget i'll oweys by your side. :)

hey you change a lot!
and i have to admit coz ll ignore u sometimes.
and so sorry..
coz i'm not there when you need a listener..
but hope you can understand.
just not that time

hey i miss you a lot!
since you're not with us anymore..
i miss the times when we talk about celebraties and boys..
both of us were so crazy on it!
and when we share our idea..
you are oweys the more creative one..
just wanna tell you i miss you friend.. :(

hey sorry friend.
since you leave..
i know you still miss your past very very much!
sorry coz cant company you to lunch sometimes and leave you alone.
and thank you when i need a listener sometimes..
you just listen and give me comfort and advice..
and oweys be honest to me.
thank you:)

i can tell them very easily if i want.
just don have that braveness.
Owhhhh... X((

2010-06-09T18:39:00.002+08:00

Long time dint update liao
actually gotta go swim just now coz the prac tonite is cancelled.
but it cancelled too coz too less pple going.
haih

don want to say too much but the conclusion is:
I AM SAD
:(

this world is really so so so so sO SO SO UNFAIR!!!!
this is what i want to say

just oweys remember God did everything in his plan.
haih
what can i do now is just pray hard
God will see this all
:)

is stronger and stronger now
coz can accept the truth now
those kind of dramatic miracles can only happens in movie
so wake up bah!

just be yourself no matter what.
no matter whatever thingy happens to you
even the sky falls
He'll protect you anyway
:)

Thx jabby and wen:)
always by my side when i need a listener
and oweys lend me your shoulder and don care i'll wet it up
:))
althought i'll hurts you girls somehow.
especially these few days
i noe!
my mood oweys getting bad these few days.
very very sorry:(
you girls ll forgive me de rite?:D
hee
sounds like yes!
haha i don care!:P

i just cant guess what are you thinking.
so please tell me
i wont mind
i'll be glad to be your listener if u want.
as oweys:)

i feel tired.
the happiness was too short
i cant catch it on the spot.
can you give me one more time?

haih.
that's all
i am so dissapointed.
:(

excited!!X))

2010-05-26T17:07:00.002+08:00

HAHA!
so now this post is for myself. :)
what did i do recently?
exam exam exam../ x__x
bia for exam lor
to prove that i can do it.
so that my parents ll be no reason to stop me from the things i want to do.

and another is for myself.
i noe the time is almost finish.
it's also time to ready ler.. :S

Yea that's it.
I am freeeee now!:D
the exams are just over today.
not free at all actually.
gotta practice with band during holidays.

Yay FUN!:D
we're going to overnite at school for ONE WEEK!!!!XDDDD
woot!!:DD

come on
just 7 hours left.
or 420 minutes.
or 25200 seconds.. :X
counting down for the practice!
and also,
cherishing
as always :)

And now i relise how important is Him.
oweys guide us and love us with no reason.
oweys lead us and protect us when we're facing temptation or whatever that may hurt us.
and sorry coz oweys ignore Your exist.
but You always forgive and love me eventhough i did wrong.
and never give me up
Thx God:)
wont forget to pray.
and sorry cos i oweys absent for going church.
i dunno whether it's correct or not.
i just want to use my own way to love You.
pray myself and always talk to You in my heart.
like wat a children did to his/her father.

hmm..
seriously hope that heaven may have internet.
but anyway He knows what am i thinking.
because He is everything:)

pray hard.
stay strong:)
Love you papa Jesus!:))

GWAHH!!!
Really have to stay strong girl!!
God ll oweys by your side.
we'll all pray for you!:)

Going to be a happy girl start from now on!
because i am mature now.
not going to be emo for those unnecessary things.
satisfy to what i have now.
and also cherish every moment with your love one.
coz u dunno what going to happen during the next second.

maybe just a blink of eye,
ur happiness ll going to be dissapear.
just maybe..
who knows,rite?

Appreciate to God in everyway.
:)

p/s: Gonna stay together for almost the whole holiday frienddd!!:DD
i noe everything might change without them but jiayou.
another history will be done by us!:D
and also..
APPRECIATE!!!!!!!!

That's all.
stay blessed:)

Smiles:)

2010-05-26T15:35:00.002+08:00

Heyy you!
never ever even think to hurt my friend!!
just step a side and go for ur own life!

well,
if u feel mad coz i write bout u on my blog
then i have to tell u u r not suite to be mad
coz u did it to my friend too!
haha u r just such a lack of love one :D

Heyy i don like your attitude!
u think u are perfect huh?
no need to do those stupid action to get pple attention la.

You have to be really grateful coz i din mention ur name on this post.
unlike u
do many action and act like u r so pity.
u wanna attract who again!?
so pity them.. :(

See what did you do!?
u just messed up everything!
but i think they wont mind.
they wont mind if there are some lame pple who freaking around them.
i believe their love ll last long.
coz they both r mature,unlike you!

your friends feeling unfair for u,
i feeling unfair to my friend too!
and that guy..
i think ur friend ll never noe the truth.
coz they'll just listen to ur version's story..
haih pity them too.

admit bah we are from the different world.
they are same but u are different.
you promise you wont care le but why u keep doing those actions?
just cant understand.

nevermind.
time ll prove it all.
it'll also prove the truth.
just wait. :)

haha but who cares?
you are just such a LOSER!@_@
coz only losers do these actions :D

p/s: Always stand by ur side no matter what. support you!:))

2010-05-16T18:05:00.003+08:00

下雨了。。

每一次的雷声，
都无情的让我想起你。。
我努力了，
真的努力了。。
努力的要忘掉你。。

承诺过自己要忘掉你多少次了？
为什么每次都做不到？

刚才，
狠下心来决定忽视你的存在。
决定假装听不到你的声音。
但我做不到。。

每次发呆时
都会不自觉的朝你的身影望去
这似乎已经成为了一种习惯不是吗？
我知道这样会更伤害自己
可是我就是控制不来
你明白吗？

那天，
本来是有很多事情要找你们诉苦的。
但很不是时候的，
我看见我最不想看见的东西。

我知道我没有资格生气，
我没有生气。
真的。。。

我很想理你
很想像以前一样
那种求你帮我做事
或是强行脱掉你的鞋子再把它藏起来的冲动。。

我想成为你的倾听者
只要你想说我都会听
只要你会说我都想听
不要忽视我
那种感觉真的很难受。。:(

weii!我不是隐形的aaaaaaaa!!:((((

雨停了。
我的伤害在痛着。。:(

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!XDD

2010-05-14T20:42:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO RICKY MY TUAN!!:D
may all his wishes comes true:)
(i'm still quite complicated to the relationship between food master and him or banket/soya and him..-.-)
ehh cepat bayar gaji leh..-.-

AND LIAN LING!:D
jia you in everything and oweys be confidence yar!XD
hee~

AND JIA CHEE!:D
good luck in your orang dewasa life!XDand also cheer up yar!
(noe her through jia wen..a good counselor and listener:))

That's all:)
don want to post this with my moody post..
this shud not be influenced..-.-
haha
:D

Smiles:)

i falled,i cried,i stand up,i smile:)

2010-05-14T17:40:00.002+08:00

to those "KA" one..(u may ask me if u wan to noe the meaning of"KA"-.-)
thank you..
coz u're increasing my EQ level..
haha :D
u are so pity coz u have no love
so u want to attract pple's attention with doing those offence..
haih
how pity are you~~
oww..~

having bad mood today..
for some reasons..

i relise..
i have not much friends to tell..
not i don trust them..
but..
there's a responbility there
i cant simply say what i want to say..

is this the must when we grow up..?
heart broke
stress
mature
responsibility
frens leaving

and many many else..

everything suddenly become not easy to me..
there's other meaning btw liao..
all things become not original as it shud be liao..
haih

how i wish that everything can back to before..
when we still can laugh with no reason
those times are..
so sweet..

i miss the past very very very much.. ;((

But..
do i have to remember it?
those memories..
this will make things more worst..
i'll leave more harder..
i cant look back or else i afraid that i'll regret in the next second..

Yaa..
i know..
it's time to give up..

i'll take it serious this time..
wont simply look back..
:((

A cloudy day! D:
but just keep smiling!!:D

JIA YOU!
p/s:esp for my dearest band members for the up coming state level!!!XD

Smiles:)
everything will be okay!

UNFAIR!!!>:(

2010-05-13T18:09:00.002+08:00

It's enough!
why are u pple hate us so much!
did we killed ur parents?

why our hard work oweys be ignored?
why we're oweys the "lo siao" one in you pple eyes?
u guys rili thinks it's easy?

we are just a bunch of annoying person who always making noise in the morning,
and oweys skip our class,
and oweys being treated better without reasons so u think it's unfair in you pple eyes..
aren't we?

whatever la..
习惯就好..
just feeling unfair..
why we do these for?
just for fun?

we also got our dream..
our target to achieve..
just same as you pple!!

isit wrong to behave ourselves?
why just nobody understand us?
oweys teasing and saying bad words behind there..
and some are hating us with no reason..
then become double face in front us..
i just cant understand..

anyway,
we are happy to being ourselves..
and i am proud to be one of us..
never regrets..
:)

p/s:State level is getting nearer soon!everyone jia you!!XD

update:)

2010-05-07T18:30:00.002+08:00

Gwahhh!!
din update my blog since soooooooo long time ago!!
X)

Ermm..
went to the sports day performance this morning..
first time perforn formation with the band..
quite panic
haa. :D

yaa then went to nonami camp just now..
actually have duty at stadium for us probations but i skipped..
coz its my turn to watch out the newbies today..
ee quite guilty
hehe

dunno why arr..
nowadays newbies discipline getting more and more worst..
haih

Ohya~
the probation thingy..
actually i'd apply for being prefect during..last month i think..
haha din update it on my blog yet..
and now is the probation period!
so..
jia you bah!:)

And went to the nipadth camp last week
learnt lots of new things..
haha
YAY I LOVE BEACH!:D
<3

i like this kind of feeling
please keep it up:)
please..

HAHAHAHAHA!
Smiles=)
爱你爱我!:D(learnt this from newbies during orientation but forgot who..-.-)

改变:)

2010-05-07T18:15:00.003+08:00

改变，
我们之间。

早上少了yeeshen pikjeng announce东西的声音
:(
但多了shuling ruiming的声音
:)

少了jiawen 陪我一起慢慢的手乐器回班
:(
但多了eric rawing陪我一起去duty的班
:)

开始不了解有的人是多么的不合作还自以为很得意
>:(
也开始了解有的人总是在默默的忍受只为了付出给那些不感恩的人
<:)

加油吧！
这条路还很长呢！:)

Smiles:)

2010-04-20T20:05:00.002+08:00

价值？
问问自己，
在你心中的价值？
很残忍的，
我找不到一个可以满足自己的答案。

好累，
好遗憾。
因为这样的结局。

难道
默默付出的成果就是如此吗？
我应该放弃吗？

在你眼中
我真的只是一个任你使唤的佣人吗？
我知道我没有资格问你，

但是
是她吗？
还是她吗？

如果依然是她，
那么
祝福你=）
我会痊愈的
不用管我。

要记得
我都在=）

2010-04-18T16:33:00.002+08:00

This is the first time i go saloon since i straighten my hair during december..-.-
'D cut my hair shorter..
rrrefrreshing!!XD

Guess what?
i'm doing my homework now!:D
yay!
haha i can see thick dust on my homework.:P

then i'm going to tidy up my scores and my files..
haha!
going to system up my life.
don want to be that clumsy girl anymore.>:(

Mum ll be going to china tonite.
may God bless her for the whole trip.
=)

Anything special 2ml?
quite enjoy the time when we study together:)
i tot we'll chat a lot
but guess what?

i'd finish my moral correction!:D
and make my pm teacher speechless when i passed up to her during the next day!
finally balas balik le..
HAHA!!:D

Jia you in study!
have to prove to everyone that we can do it!
band members are not fool!!

enjoy the happy moment although it is tiring..
cherish and appreciate!:D

Smiles=)

SMILES!!:))

2010-04-17T19:12:00.002+08:00

I"M BACK!!:D

nothing better to do so want to find out something to update my blog..-.-
So wad ISIT??

my phone inbox is getting too "eng" this few days..
no plan for outing..
they all got other things to do..
damn bored.
:(

Went for band activity this morning!:D
and also larry's birthday!
they should be in spain last year's 2day..
haha
I gave him 2 years de wishes..
ciz i'm din with him last year..
get it?
haha broken english..

It's quite fun but not enough..
many pple not there..
not as before..
always kepo together while rest time..
:(

Hanim went for her agama camp and yi hong went for leo orientation..
nobody help us dapao le..
haih=(

We should plan for outing again!
for our 2 bosses birthday!:D
getting nearer soon..
keep giving hint..-.-
haha
know la know la..
wont forget:)

I'd learnt to forget those unhappy thingyss!:D
Thx yu ming!
she'd told me a word that i think it's meaningful:
你没有资格生气因为他并不属于你.

Ya
i admit..
so just forget it..
just keep it as before..
=)

it's time to leave..
mum keep nagging ler..
bye..=.=

Smiles=)

2010-04-15T19:21:00.002+08:00

*HAIH*

my heart is bleeding..
no one would understand..

I AM PAIN
I AM PAIN
I AM PAIN
I AM PAIN
!!!!!!

i hate to be quiet coz i'm terrify..
my mind ll be full of you
it shouldnt be!
it ll just hurts me more!

i pretend like i missed what you said because i don wan to listen to it!
i walked away coz i don want to let you see my pain
i cried when you are not there
i told my friend another reason just not to let them worry bout me while i'm hiding another reason that everyone dunno!
i pretend like i don care while you're teasing me!

you just never understand..
i bet you wont even come and view my blog..
you wont care...

okay,i feel better now..=)

jia you bah!
Stay strong!=)

2010-04-13T21:23:00.002+08:00

Being emo with myself this few days..
nobody know..
din tell anyone..
haha
It will be over very very soon..
i'll try my best to forget it..
my pain........
HAHA!
emo again..-.-"

I'm just not that perfect ma...
not that pretty
not that clever..

never mind la i know myself de la..
I'm always the loser
i admit..
so stop teasing ler plss..
it's really hurt okay..
>:(

I AM STINGY!
NO NEED TO BOTHER ME
LIKE WHAT YOU USUALLY DO!!!!!!

Haha i no need to show you how sad am i..
you wont care anyway,arent you?

Hahaha i know
you wont care!

Nobody know what am i talking about..
so just f*** off!
i'm on bad mood now!

I'm so tired to pretend like i'm okay!
SO FAKE!

just let me keep emo-ing for few more days
everything will be okay..
hope so..

GERAM!!!!!
>:(

2010-04-10T22:37:00.002+08:00

HAHA!!
I'm sooo damn fool!

Why should i keep day dreaming with myself!?
WAKE UP VERO!!
it couldn't be!

Heyy I am strong!
it couldn't bother me much.
it'll be over..
soon..
i hope so..

I DON CARE
lalalalalalalalalalalalalalala

I'm not sad!
wont cry..
:D

no need to be sad.
nothing make me sad!
:DD

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

JIA YOU!
I AM STRONG!!!!!!!

Smiles=)

lil update for myself :)? :(?

2010-04-08T18:00:00.004+08:00

Finally touch my blog again..

actually want to update it many times but din update at last..

haha

Our school concert was over hundered years ago liao..

cried during the last day..

for some reasons..:(

but at least i din waste my tears..

because i drop it for reasons that i think it's meaningful..

And next is our band orientation!!

i dont think it is 100 percent success because i don think i did my full job..

the backdrop...........................=(
it's really drop le..
jia wen said never mind at least the newbies will remember how's the backdrop looks like..
-.-

VERY SORRY BOUT THAT!!

but i have to say thanks to y2k,erika and jess jong..

thx for helping me to paint the backdrop..=)

you guys really helps a lot!

And nonami camp!!

just ends yesterday..

we practice songs for state liao..

us woodwinds havent get our score so quite "eng" de lo..

keep doing lame pose with jabby and playing with our knees..

Ohya and playing with our hair!

jia wen got new hairstyle liao..

hanim wears pyjamas to school!

ching ean looks bad with alvin ting's spec

chin chian's cold jokes got improve liao

and yi hong keep sleeping..-.-

haha fun!:D

And somebody came to wash my brain..
i'm not mad but i have to thank him..
to let me understand how worst is the problem..
But this time i have really no idea to solve the problem..
actually i have but i don want to..

It's really hard to leave..
i have to go back to the place where actually belongs to me le..
maybe you wont understand what am i talking about..
just want to shout it out..
i din expect there will be lots of pple come and view my blog..-.-

Okay..
there's no other choice liao?
just need some time to accept this..
although i noe i have no much more time liao..
haih

Anyway,
ll miss those times very much..
when we are crazy-ing with our own jokes..
teasing and make fun of each others..
with those simplest people
sharing the simplest happiness..
wont forget..
i promise..:)

It's time to face my fear..
and accept it..
it wont be too hard,
rite?

I'm cherishing every moment..
There's really no much more time...
...............
..........
.....
..
.
.
.

;(

Smiles=)

:)

2010-04-02T21:49:00.003+08:00

忙
茫
盲

有谁还会记得那最初的感动？

我
很想把它收藏好来
让我的记忆因为你而留下色彩。。

我们一起踏过的痕迹，
或喜或悲，
都是值得纪念的。

因为，
朋友就是这么简单。
=）

。珍惜。感恩。了解。微笑。

Smiles=)

i'm looking for something to update...=(

2010-03-30T21:36:00.003+08:00

Waa..
the school concert is finally over..
finally....
finally it reach it's end..
you guys are really gonna leave us soon..
=(

SIEN!!!
why the time past so fast!!?
and why all the things come so sudden?
Suddenly you guys all leave liao..?

I cant walk alone..
haih..**

That damned computer is really challenging my patient..
i cant upload my photos..
GWAHH!!!!

So weird today..
so empty today..
so lonely today...

I'd really feel the difference..
IT IS VERY OBVIOUS!

just want to keep going..
nothing can change us,okay?=(

Am i really important?
why i cant feel so?
will you guys remember me?

I dunno what am i talking about..
just want to find something to update...
my sky is going to rain!:(
sob*

Stay strong!
Smiles=)

2010-03-27T13:31:00.002+08:00

*UPDATED*

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

I know it couldn't be..
stop teasing..
i know myself..
i don have to show you how much it hurts..
you would never understand my pain..
just keep simple..
keep it normal than normal..
like what you want to..

Blah.
stay strong:)

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

1 day
11 hours
17 minutes left..

Goodbye friend:(
try not to cry..

*chesrish*

lack of something?

2010-03-17T21:42:00.003+08:00

Long time din update my blog ler..
...
i'm here to shout..DX

Dunno whether if i missed my way..
i feel like i have different things to do everyday..
and the time passed very fast too..
but i feel like doing nothing...
just lack of some kind of feeling..
what is that harr??
still searching..

we din have quarrel a..
so wierdddd...--"

Quite down coz got 3 person..
quite important d person in my life..
are going to leave soon..
very very soon!T_T
they know themselves..
unless if they din read my blog..
they pok gai lo..
:D

the time to be together is limited..
we all have to grow up liao lo..
cannot oweys depends to each other liao..
haih

And many many else..
i don think i have to list down all the reason that makes me sad..
it will be uncountable..
i think..

So i'll be recovered faster if i din record down..
haha
:)

I feel blank..
although i know i have lots of things to do..
Din event reach half yet!
jia you bah..
T_T

Support is a very important point to build up confidence..
and with this,
we can get improvement..

Jia you!
Smiles=)

誓言！

2010-03-10T20:10:00.002+08:00

为了证明我们是讲到做到的人，
这次一定要成功！

一起加油！
这次非得瘦下来不可！

To my partner: Mammie Loi Chui Ping!!!

Add math=hell@@

2010-03-10T19:41:00.003+08:00

Add math ar add math!
why are you keep bothering my life!!?
my life will be perfect without u..
T_T

Well..
i'm missing my way with my add math now..
HAHA!
i can almost see my result now..
fail faIL FAIL!!
@_@

Owhh!!
i miss my frens sooo muchh!><
feels like din see them for a long time liao ehh..

Hope we can hang out after this..
no much more time left..
keep reminding myself..
don wan 2 have any regret..
CHERISH IS RILI IMPORTANT!!

how would it be if u guys leave?
Would u guys still remember us?
would we change?
would we keep gossiping and crazying together as before?
would we meet each other again?
would we forget each other and let our friendship dissapear as the time passed?
would we still remember each other's name if we meet each other in the future?

Owhh!!
so sad when i think bout this!
Not dare to imagine..
not dare to face it..
i noe i have to face it someday..
but not the time yet..
i don wan to waste the time to be together with u guys..
=(
I don wan anyone of us leave!!>_<
but we have no choice..
haih..

Jia you oorhh..
bigger challenges r waiting 4 us..
all of us..
BE STRONG YAR!XD
and keep smiling!！
like this!
:)
this!
=)
this!
=]
or this!
:D

XDD

2 more days to go!!
JIA YOU!!
Add math i hate u..>:(

I want lose my weight!!>_<
Damn fat!-.-

And happy birthday to yee hung!
i have to admit sometimes u r rili noisy in class..
our class will be obviously more quiet while u r sleeping..XD
haha!

Anyway,
Smiles=)

=(

2010-03-06T20:58:00.002+08:00

Went to pustaka with frens 2day..
study..
haha
I have no idea with my account..T_T
wait 2 fail bahh.......

Suddenly got a bit sad ehh..
they all gonna leave soon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!T_T
Now is march liao arr...
juz few months time..
and they all gonna graduate..=(

Who say we'll forget u guys?
we'll not d la!
I wont forget u guys d!!
=(

I don want 2 grow up................
=(

Smiles=)

05 march 2010

2010-03-05T19:20:00.002+08:00

2day got school concert rehearsal..
i'm happy coz i meet my frens:)
long time din see them liao ehh..~
haha actually see them few days b4..XD

Form 3 so suang!!
they finished their exam ler..
and us form 4 and 5 just start ours..
so have 2 bia liao lo..
if not later mum nag again..-.-
haha

Saw jim just now during school concert!
thx God he is fine..
he said he don rmb me liao..
i hope he's joking..==

andd................
just read my previous post..
rili proud coz i feel myself more mature liao ehh~:D
hehe..
yeah claps claps!XD

Exam faster over liao!
hate to be nothing to do
I WANT SWEAT!!XDDDD
haha

i want to say something but i don want to post it on blog ehh..=P
how??
EEE YERRR!!~>_<
hard 2 keep secret!!>_<
i'm sure i'll forgot what am i going 2 say if u ask me next time..=.=
HAHA!

Don ignore me ehh..
i'm not useless ehh..

Smiles=)

ahaha!!XD

2010-03-04T14:21:00.002+08:00

waa..
i think my blog grow moss liao..-.-

Ermm..
anyway i'm here now..=)

What did i do during last few days!!?
...

Concert rehearsal during last friday morning with band..
yaa public holiday..
then went for meeting for the band orientation..
then went"tuition"!!!
XD
It's rili fun!!
then went 2 ching ean's house by chian's van..
haha
They play pokers..
i dunno how 2 play so juz sit there n watch them play lo..
sleepyy..
i think i shud learn a bit ehh..
kemahiran hidup ma..
haha
but this is a secret bout nth..
so i cant say which kind of tuition..X)
*shhh..*
XDD

Saturday..
went to chin chian's house!!

Actually went 2 ching ean house first,
then wait for jabby come fetch us to yi lian there..
then yi lian fetch us to chin chian's house.....

complicated ho..=.=

haha anyway it was a great day!
but sien i nid 2 go for my first piano lesson..
my car come during the half way while i'm making the omellete..
owhh..
too bad i din eat them..>_<

Then Sunday...
went 2 yi hong's house!!
we watch singapore's soaps!!
now i realise i'd miss lots of part coz i dunno wad happen in the drama..-.-
haha..

Monday!!
that's the last time i see jabby coz she's having her first trial PMR..
jia you jabby and all the form 3s..=)

Tuesday!!
heavy haze till the long tone is temporarily cancelled!!
cant even see the road clearly..
jia wen absent..
i think is because of her asthma..
walauu..-.-

Wednesday!!
the situation is better but the air is still dirty..
I hate open burners..>_<
And HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JILLY!!!!XD
haha miss u a lot there!!
bia shu with bro at nite with many many snacks!!<3
ahaha!!

The upper forms exam is start 2day..
walau hinn arr..
the questions r damned hard..
i still don understand why shud they put sj in the exam..
susahkan pelajar niaa..-.-
ya yaa..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO CHESTER CHIA CHAU YIH!!
he say i ignore his birthday..
ahaha!!
i din't la..
stupid...!XD

HAHAHA!!!
these few days r fun!
=)

Smiles=)

重要得微不足道=）

2010-02-24T20:17:00.002+08:00

本来写了一个post。。
但是最后觉得不适合放在blog所以重写了一篇。。-。-

我觉得我是一个怪人。。
不知道你认不认同我的想法。。

有时会不会同情那些被浪费的食物？
因为。。
它们被迫离开它们的家，
然后被送去和陌生的同类一起等待结束自己的生命。。
它们的皮会被剖掉，肉会被斩成好多的碎片。。
它们要忍受在火炉上的刺热，
让热度杀死自己身上的每一刻细胞。。
只为了在那一瞬间让那些不知足的人类温饱他们的肚子。。

被吃下去的，
得经过人类充满危机的肠胃。。
它们身上的优点全被拿走，
留下一大堆的残渣，
最后被排泄出来成为人类眼中的废物，

而那些没被吃下去的，
就得被倒掉。。
它们如此的牺牲，
却被人类当作理所当然。。
根本没给它们机会。。

不觉得食物很伟大吗？？
O_O"

有时候，
就是因为这些微不足道的东西，
让我们的生活变得不平凡。。。

要知足=）
很重要！

2010-02-24T18:56:00.002+08:00

finally..
the thing makes me worry 4 a whole nite is finished!
hooh...-.-
we stayed in the staff room for almost the half school time just 2 finish that thing..
and spent half to 1 period time 2 spread it out..
Anyway..
it's finally over..
haha..
but enjoy the time 2gether in the staff room..
get rush 2gether for doing the same thing..
cant forget the sucks printer..-.-
and y2k jia you oo..
some pple r stubborn de la no nid care bout them..XD

Okayy..
ermm..

so everyone jia you!
-hope we will be good partners and make a success one!
*to those who noe wad mean..*

-and hope can see you guys there.There will lost lots of meaning without u guys..=(
*to those who noe wad i mean too..-.-*

Cant wait 4 friday!!!!XD
hope it'll be a memorable one..=)
wuhooo!!!

i seriously nid more brain juice..
i'm dehydrate now..-.-

Jia you!

Smiles=)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!!XDD

2010-02-22T21:09:00.002+08:00

2day is a rili rili rili rili rili special dayy!!!!XD
Guess wad??

NTH is being 1 year old now!!
CELEBRATE!:D

...

Actually din celebrate 2day coz this is the first day for school after cny holidays..
so..

POSTPONED!

but soon..

so high so no mood 2 post too many..
i think i'll just post vry long post when i suddenly become kepo or moody..
anyway...

JIA YOU!!!!!

Goodnite!^^
Smiles=)

2010-02-21T11:40:00.002+08:00

我不敢再奢望什么。。
也不知道结局会是怎样。。
现在唯一能做的事就是劝自己不要再去想太多。。
坚强！
我知道自己可以坚强下去的！
加油！

2010-02-19T21:31:00.002+08:00

Kitt arr..!
just came back this morning then got performance tonite..
haha..
went 2 school jz now..
...
....
.....
......
.......

haa..
ll go ching ean's place 2ml..
then go feli's open house..
then go PARKSONN!!XDD

huu..
hope it will be funn..:D

Okayy..
time 2 go 2 bed..
nite^^

2010-02-18T20:51:00.003+08:00

Pheww..
finally our sing's trip is gonna reach 2 the end..
ll be back by 2ml morning..=)

I'd upgrade my cupboard a bit..
so here's my result..
*1 nike running shoes
*1 rubi shoes
*1 E&E purple shoes..(my latest favorite color!!XD)
*3 outfits from this fashion..
*1 short pants
*1 white short surf pants
*13 wrist bands as souvenir..(i'd promise them..)
dunno what 2 buy so i bought them..not copying arr..><

i think that's all le gua..
i din find the wallet..><
hope can find 1 from the airport or else i'll buy it from parkson..-.-

Anyway the school will be reopen by monday..
hope everything will be fine..//
actually the schools here oledi reopen on thursday..
but my cousins din go..
aiyar..they still kids marr..

ll miss them very much!
cute little Euzen and Euann..
ohya.. and coming soon's Hong rui..-.-

During the last few days..
my mum and uncle did mention bout my study plan at here after graduate..
owhh.. why so fast..
i'm gonna graduate soon..
just 1/2 more years to go..

maybe.. this is the last chance i stay in miri..?
just 2 more years..
then i'm gonna study here..
work here.. live here..
...
Cant imagine the life without them..
it will be colorless..

owhhhhh!!!
just let me breath 4 a while..

So cherish is very important yarr..
cherish the time with my family my friends..
sobs=(

Gonna explode!!
stop giving me pressure!
haih..

Jia you!
Smiles=)

i like the lyrics..

2010-02-15T22:05:00.002+08:00

[ti:傻瓜]
[ar:温岚]
[al:热浪]
[by:李泽昊]

温岚-傻瓜

其实他做的坏事我们都懂
没有什么不同
眼光闪烁暧昧流动
闭上眼当作听说

其实别人的招数我们都懂
没有什么不同
故作软弱撒娇害羞
只是有一点别扭

傻瓜也许单纯地懂
爱得没那么做作
爱上了我不保留

傻瓜我们都一样
被爱情伤了又伤
相信这个他不一样
却又再一次受伤

傻瓜我们都一样
受了伤却不投降
相信付出会有代价
代价只是一句傻瓜

=)?
=(?

Just keep smiling:)

Smiles=)

2010-02-13T12:25:00.002+08:00

Now i realise that..
i dunno u that much eh..
i tot i very understand bout u..

Myself think too much le..
sry if i'd disturb u b4..
Sorry..
=(

blessing

2010-02-12T22:19:00.002+08:00

Thx God!
i'm here now with ur blessing..

So,
wad m i gonna 2 do?
still cant go shopping yet coz still got many preparation 2 do..
L
A
M
E
-
I
N
G
~
~
~
mum is baking cookies now..
not intered 2 help coz my cousins all very kind 2 help her le..
the kitchen's space is limited so i don think i'm gonna squize into it..
Nahh many excuse..-.-

my cousins r damn cute!!XDD
gonna be one more soon~~
Loi Hong Rui if i'm not wrong..
nice name..
he's a boy..
haha..XDD
cant wait 4 his arrival!!XD

Miss my friends in miri very much!!
cant imagine if i rili leave them..
cant be independ without them..
haih its rili harder than i imagine..T_T

and also cant imagine how would it be if my friends leave me..
owhh man..
i believe it will happen soon..
Just.....
cant breath...
haih..

I want to be brave..
so that i can tell u wad m i thinking..
it's so hard to keep the secret......
blahhh...
I'm an idiot..

Smiles=)

reason?

2010-02-11T15:50:00.003+08:00

Hey friend!
actually wanna update my blog yesterday..
but something happens during this few days..
so no mood 2 update..
hmmp...

Okay..
this is a bit complicated n i don think it's suitable 2 post on blog..
u noe..
privacy thingy..-.-

Arghh!!
i tot i almost reach there..
my target..
bla bla blaa..
=_=
hard 2 say..

And i realise that everything could be change..
and it's changing every minute,every second..
We cant control it..
even though we tried hard 2 change it better..
La la la..
forget it..
they wouldn't understand..
I'm just a loser in their eyes..aren't i?
suan liaww..

Based on the post on above,u can observed that my mood is not very good this few days..
again..
My confidence lost again..
*haih*
I'm oweys wrong d la..
who'll believe me??

And how about the answer?
u havent gimme a accurate one..
keep worrying..
sienn..

And..
thanks very much..
u noe who u r..
rili appreciate it when i nid support..
thank you..=)

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Going 2 Singapore 2ml!!:D
that's mean
S
H
O
P
P
I
N
G
!!
XD
woot i like this word!!XD
Will miss u guys very much and sorry i cant go tuan bai..
too bad i cant go..=(

So not going 2 sch 2ml..
haha
The flight will be in the morning..
hermm..
see ya!!
Just leave commentS if u miss me!
haha!!XD
Stay tune for more updates!:D

Happy Chinese New Year!
GONG XI FA CAI 2010!

Smiles=)

2010-02-08T19:48:00.002+08:00

如果没有记错的话，
这应该是我drop掉华语后第一次用华文写blog..

最近的生活。。
可以说是。。
又充实又空虚。。

充实的是。。
我开始一步步的接近我的梦想。。
忙得很开心。。
但，
空虚的是。。
我少了以前的那种感觉。。
那种很期待休息时间可以一起上厕所，
一起吃午餐，
一起聊八卦的感觉。。

真的好怀念好怀念。。
但又能怎样？

随着命运接踵而来的安排。。
一次又一次的考验等着让我们面对。。
这让我慢慢的学着接受事实。。

醒来吧！
不可能回到从前的！
可是我不想死心！
我真的放不下来！

不知道被这个问题困扰了多少次。。
也总是以为问题解决了。。
但它就是这样总是困扰在我们之间，
久久不能散去。。

不想就这么算了。。
我不知道自己在要求什么。。

我真的不在意别人的入，
但只希望不要因为其他人而改变我们之间。。

就这样。。
沉默填满了我的脑袋。。

“加油！”

END

2010-02-08T15:54:00.002+08:00

Guess wad?
we did our great job in our band concert!!XDD
claps claps~:D

Owhh~
miss it very much!!
now i have no excuse for skipping class lerr..T_T
blahh..
jia youT_T

Oh ya!
the photos!!
hope can upload it as soon as possible~^^
And.......
ermmm..
suddenly have no idea..
dunno wad 2 say..

Anyway we rili work hard 2 make this concert 2 be succeed..
and i think we did it..
So wat's our target??!
-Best concert
-Memorable concert
-Good image
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
XDD

So proud 2 be a band member!!
event some of my classmates who not support band very much d oso did compliment 2 this times' concert..!!
so just...
WALAU!!
We are rili awesome!!XDD
hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha!!
hope there will be an appreciation dinner or maybe a celebration for it..
WUSHH!!!
XD

"So band,what's our concept!!?":
One band one sound,One heart one soul!!<3
Smiles=)

SHOW TIME!!XDD

2010-02-06T10:35:00.002+08:00

Busying for our band concert since my last update..
It's 2day!!
OUR SHOW TIME!!
our hard work and everything will be prove by TONIGHT!!
and thx 2 God for helping us and lead us till 2day..

hahahahahaha!!!
so excited!!
actually my instrument suddenly got problem 2day..
makes me so panic and dunno how 2 do..
but thx God..
i finally got a clarinet from kang yao..
he borrow me his bro's clarinet..
pheww..

Last nite rehearsal till 10 sumthing..
then went back home..
busy prepare the stuff till 12 sumthing..
Guess wad?
we no nid go sch for replacement 2day!!
woohoo!!
HAK AHLI PANCARAGAM!!XDD
we can rest at home and do some preparation..

kham n jilly..
miss u gals very much!!
Ll try the best d..
must jia you there oo!!XD

hope i wont forget those bunga bunga things..
hermm..
jia you!!

-Best concert
-Memorable concert
-Good image

We can do it!
Best concert on earth!!XDD

Smiles=)
One band one sound,One heart one soul.

2010-01-28T11:35:00.002+08:00

SICK JOR!!>_<
din went 2 sch 2day..
can talk very loudly.
juz talk using whisper..XD
=.=
ll be back 4 practice!!
u guys must wait 4 me arr~~XDD

Bye jilly~
hope can see u soon~^^
take care yarr~

...
dunno wad 2 say..
just feel so sleepy..
concert jia you!!
may God bless us all and our health..
take care!^^

..

2010-01-25T18:01:00.002+08:00

Friends are forgiven..

I think i did it..=)

2F!!
Forgive and Forget!!
XD

besides,
us Chung Hua Miri Brassband will be having our first concert on 6 Febuary!!!XDD
Time:8 to 10 nite
Venue:dewan suarah miri
Ticket price:RM 20/30/50!!

Pls come and support us..
u can get the information from any chung hua band members if u are interested..
Spread this 2 ur friend!!
hope can see u there..=)

12 days left!!
if i'm not wrong..
JIA YOU!!
for our same targets!!XDD

One band one sound,One heart one soul!!~XDD

Smiles=)
*cherish*

2010-01-24T18:17:00.002+08:00

Haixx..
rili tired ehh..
why u guys all become like this?
where's our spirit?
all gone liao??

i rili
rili
rili
rili rili..
miss it..

and also rili
rili
rili
rili rili
sad n feel dissapoint 2 this..

suan liao..
i tot there's still got a lil hope..
but obviously the answer already show 2 me..
FAKE!!

FORGET IT!!

2010-01-17T19:53:00.002+08:00

@_@
keep bzing on upload the orientation photo 2 fb..
Arghh!!
almost forget how 2 upload it..
keep asking my friends but doesn't help much..
so finally "gao dim" it by myself..=.=

S
I
C
K
.
.
.
-_-

feel a bit headache..
and the surrounding suddenly become so cold 4 me..-.-
sick jorr..=.=

and KHAM!!
heard that she reach there lerr..
may God bless her..
ll miss her very much..T_T
haih..

Walao!!
2ml start sch liao!!
no more excuse for the homework liao..
this time mati liao la..
x.x

i
feel
sleepy
now......

Oh ya~
the orientation photo already been upload on my fb..
pls come n take a look n leave comment..
hehe..

Rest well
Smiles=)

T_T

2010-01-16T10:27:00.003+08:00

=(
T_T
;(
.
.
.
.
.
.
Kham come see us last nite..
she went 2 new zealand this morning lerr..
bye kham.
may god bless u there=)

Orientation ends yesterday too..
i tot i wont cry..
but finally cry ler..=.=
bla bla blaa..
Lazy 2 write down all the progress..
anyway the photo will be upload soon..

We all sick lerr..!!
I had fever lerrr..
coz the heavy rain this few days...
=.=
so dint went 2 sch 2day..
i believe there's lot of homework waiting 4 me 2 settle..O.O
owh man i miss orientation..T_T
and 2day's band practice canceled too..
coz lots of ajk sick lerr..
So the audition change 2 2ml..
aduhh jia you bahh..

Those prefects went 2 prefect camp at borneo yesterday..
till 2ml..
hermm jia you bahh..

JIA YOU WE CAN DO IT!!XDD
just few weeks 2 go..
chung hua miri brassband first concert..
must 2 be success..
JIA YOU!!!

Smiles=)

another veroish day! :D

**

I miss this :(

introducing you.. Nick Pitera!

Dear heart..

That simplish happiness :)

I want to know..

the recent me :)

Last words for them :(

*shout it LOUD!

a post without points

A post with full of fire! AAAAAAAAArghhh!

special words to a special someone :)

What is life?

shhhh...

一路走好

STRONGER!

pray hard!

cupcakes fever! ♥

a late update!:D

What i've done :)

sorry i don like to set tittle for my post it's totally RANDOM!:DD

hope you know who you are:)

*wake up*

hehehe.. :)

excited!!X))

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!XDD

i falled,i cried,i stand up,i smile:)

UNFAIR!!!>:(

update:)

改变:)

SMILES!!:))

lil update for myself :)? :(?

:)

i'm looking for something to update...=(

lack of something?

誓言！

Add math=hell@@

=(

05 march 2010

ahaha!!XD

重要得微不足道=）

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!!XDD

i like the lyrics..

blessing

reason?

*END*

SHOW TIME!!XDD

..

T_T

wake up

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